Archive | February, 2014

Give Up

28 Feb

Stop it

Move on already

It’s done

It’s over

We’ve lost already


Let it go

19 Feb

Let it go, let it pass because you know that you will laugh the last

This is the End

19 Feb

This is the end.

I’ve lost.

You confessed.

Not to me.

But to her.

Good luck.

I know that you’ll love each other.

Look after her.

She’s my best friend.

She has to look after you.

You are like my brother.


I had always loved you more.

More than a brother.

But as a lover.

Don’t worry.

You’ll see me again.

In 3 months.

You’ll see me.

With a man.

Who will love me.

Just like how you loved me.

But the sad thing is that.

It’s not you.

The Silence Of Jealousy

7 Feb

The three of us sat by a small round table. It was you, me , and my best friend.

She had coffee, you had coffee while I got green tea crème.

You cracked a joke, we both laughed.

We all started to converse about our weekends as we make a big noise in the very silent café.

You handed my best friend a long white envelope, I suspect it was the palanca you promised to give her, she opened it and started to read silently.

It was a three-page long palanca typed-written in a long bond paper. I was way longer compared to the palancas you gave to me in the past.

As she read the palanca, you and I began to talk to each other. Your whole attention was focused on me and we never failed to make me smile with your stories. I wished we could have this moment together forever because you make me fall for you even more.

When you cracked another joke I was laughing so hard and I accidentally knocked over my  drink, causing it to spill some on my pants.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom to wash off, leaving you guys together.

After washing off the tea and drying it up I came back to my seat. When I sat down and looked at you guys exchanging shy glances at one another. I blinked many times and thought that my eyes might have been deceiving me.

I tried to start another conversation as I asked what happened when I was gone.

You grew quiet and she did as well.

So I just sat there as I felt alone and unwanted for the first time in my life. I felt like a broken third-wheel which you guys wanted to remove.

The silence was killing me because you didn’t want to talk to me but instead you just stared at her the whole.

I couldn’t take it.

So I took my bag and walked out without a single word.

Because the silence speak for itself.

Whispered Words

7 Feb

“He is not yours”

I heard a faint whisper from the shelves as look around the bookstore.

“You don’t deserve him”

I pulled out a book, not caring what it was or what it was all about, and started flipping through the pages.

“Can you not see them together?”

I poked my head at the edge of the shelf and saw him happily talking to my best friend.

“Don’t they look good together?”

I shrugged and continued down the aisle.

“Are you jealous?”

I stopped.

“Do you wish to be the one he’s talking to, not her?”

I dropped the book and hurriedly picked it up.

“Do you want him to know how you feel?”

Facing back on the shelf in a corner, my breath became heavier.

“Are you not happy that you see him happier with her than you?”

I ran my hand to my chest.

“Do you regret letting her meet him?”

I clenched my fist.

“Do you want him to look at you only?”

Gritting my teeth.

“Do you feel left out when you are with them?”

I hugged my knees and tears started to come out.

“Does your heart-aches when you see them together?

I nodded.

“… You can’t have him”

Pet name

5 Feb

“Why are you blushing?”

“He called me ‘sweetie’ and said ‘I love you’ to me earlier”



“Why are you crying?”

“He said he’s in love with my best friend”

Doctor and Companion

2 Feb

To The Doctor,

Greetings Doctor I’m glad you are reading this right now because I can now tell you something that I did not have any courage of saying it to you personally. First of all I would just like to say that I am grateful that you have chosen me to travel with you around through time and space. I was scared at first, well you can obviously tell from my constant screams on the first time you activated the TARDIS with me on board, but knowing that you are there by my side I became more confident and courageous to face my fears about the past and future. I was just surprised that have granted me access on TARDDIS.You are my hero. You brought me to places that I never thought of going to because life restraining me from finding out what this universe is all about and all that it has to offer.

It may have been a hectic ride but you were there to help me keep up and basically solve everything with your own Sonic Screwdriver. But time has changed and I am in need to live my own life this time, I believe it is time for me to allow me to live my life in the present. It is not that I did not like time travelling, entering the TARDIS, and spending an eternity wandering around with you like two lost birds. I enjoyed every single moment of it because it isn’t just because of the time being in our hands but us being together the whole time.

Thank you Doctor for accompanying me on this journey and I hope to travel with you again soon.

Sincerely from your beloved,


Spoken Words

2 Feb

“I love you”

Is it wrong to say this to a person whom you’re not interested romantically? I wonder because ever since you said those words to me with gratitude I did not know what to say, I took you lightly because of the thought of I knew it can’t be. Before I liked you, I was infatuated, like a little high school girl feeling the butterflies in her stomachs for the first time. I suck at this because I didn’t know how to return the words you told me, even though they were not real.

Time passed and I lost interest in you because I knew you found someone but I never knew your relationship did not last long, why? You were both perfect and then you suddenly splitted. You cried to me before and ranted to me all the things, though I was not good at giving advices because I never had anyone in my life but sometimes experiences are not as helpful as a human’s imagination. I tried to look at things in your perspective but I failed to do so. But about the talk we had earlier you told me you rather go solo because felt more free when you are not chained to your partner, you tend to be more happier because you didn’t need to worry much about anything or anyone.

I smiled because we are just the same. We both wanted to be single because we wanted to be free not chained, happy not limited.

That’s why I said “I love you too” because we both know we can never acknowledge anyone, even ourselves, as lovers.

“I love you too”