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The Silence Of Jealousy

7 Feb

The three of us sat by a small round table. It was you, me , and my best friend.

She had coffee, you had coffee while I got green tea crème.

You cracked a joke, we both laughed.

We all started to converse about our weekends as we make a big noise in the very silent café.

You handed my best friend a long white envelope, I suspect it was the palanca you promised to give her, she opened it and started to read silently.

It was a three-page long palanca typed-written in a long bond paper. I was way longer compared to the palancas you gave to me in the past.

As she read the palanca, you and I began to talk to each other. Your whole attention was focused on me and we never failed to make me smile with your stories. I wished we could have this moment together forever because you make me fall for you even more.

When you cracked another joke I was laughing so hard and I accidentally knocked over my  drink, causing it to spill some on my pants.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom to wash off, leaving you guys together.

After washing off the tea and drying it up I came back to my seat. When I sat down and looked at you guys exchanging shy glances at one another. I blinked many times and thought that my eyes might have been deceiving me.

I tried to start another conversation as I asked what happened when I was gone.

You grew quiet and she did as well.

So I just sat there as I felt alone and unwanted for the first time in my life. I felt like a broken third-wheel which you guys wanted to remove.

The silence was killing me because you didn’t want to talk to me but instead you just stared at her the whole.

I couldn’t take it.

So I took my bag and walked out without a single word.

Because the silence speak for itself.

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Whispered Words

7 Feb

“He is not yours”

I heard a faint whisper from the shelves as look around the bookstore.

“You don’t deserve him”

I pulled out a book, not caring what it was or what it was all about, and started flipping through the pages.

“Can you not see them together?”

I poked my head at the edge of the shelf and saw him happily talking to my best friend.

“Don’t they look good together?”

I shrugged and continued down the aisle.

“Are you jealous?”

I stopped.

“Do you wish to be the one he’s talking to, not her?”

I dropped the book and hurriedly picked it up.

“Do you want him to know how you feel?”

Facing back on the shelf in a corner, my breath became heavier.

“Are you not happy that you see him happier with her than you?”

I ran my hand to my chest.

“Do you regret letting her meet him?”

I clenched my fist.

“Do you want him to look at you only?”

Gritting my teeth.

“Do you feel left out when you are with them?”

I hugged my knees and tears started to come out.

“Does your heart-aches when you see them together?

I nodded.

“… You can’t have him”

How could I fall for someone who is already in love with someone else?

15 Oct

I walked through the busy streets of the city, constantly dodging a lot of passers-by, stopping at one end of the crossing road. Little did I know you were there standing at the other end of the road, waving at me and smiling at my presence.

Do you know how happy I am seeing you smile like that?

But this happiness I’ve felt suddenly disappeared as the red lights turn green and people started to walk, I saw his hand take yours and led you away, passing by me like I was not there. I turned my head as I give you a last glance, you were so happy with your arm wrapped around his under the cold night.

Did you know how perfect you look under the moonlight?

Before I turned my head away, away from the sweet sight that you and him share, you gave me one last wave before you start to disappear in the crowd. A small smile crept on my lips as I began to step down from my spot and cross the road.

Little did I know it was that last time I’ll see you and your smile.

How could I fall for someone who is already in love with someone else?