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This is the End

19 Feb

This is the end.

I’ve lost.

You confessed.

Not to me.

But to her.

Good luck.

I know that you’ll love each other.

Look after her.

She’s my best friend.

She has to look after you.

You are like my brother.

But.

I had always loved you more.

More than a brother.

But as a lover.

Don’t worry.

You’ll see me again.

In 3 months.

You’ll see me.

With a man.

Who will love me.

Just like how you loved me.

But the sad thing is that.

It’s not you.

Lost Twin

23 Aug

“I’m planning to join the blue clan”

Those words struck me as I dropped the cheery-soda can I was holding.

“You can’t join them, because of them dad got killed!”

I gripped on his shirt and started sobbing.

“That’s why I want to join the blues, I’m taking over his place”

“What about mother, what did she say about this?”

He pulled something out from underneath the kontatsu. It was wrapped with a black cloth and tied with red strings.

“She gave me this as her answer”

Slowly, as he unties the strings and unwrapped the cloth my eyes widened.

“That’s-”

It was a rapier with beautiful carvings on it’s long blade, it’s hilt glistered in gold, and it looked so new as if it was never used in battle.

“You’re right, it’s dad’s rapier. Mother gave it to me and told me to use in honor of our father, but-”

He stood up stood closer to me.

“I want you to have it instead”

My jaw dropped and hands gripped on to my skirt, he must be joking.

“What are you doing!”

“I don’t want to use father’s sword, I know that I am not worth using it against my enemies or to even use it to serve my king”

He handed me the sword and my hands were shaking as I took it from his hands, running my hands through the cold blade.

“Why me?”

I felt my teary eyes started to sting and tears started streaming down.

“Father has always admired your skills in wielding a sword, I believe you can use this better than me”

“What about mother, she trusted you with this?”

He patted my head, his hands felt so warm and so comforting.

“She’ll understand, so about me joining the task force it’s okay if I do-”

“I approve”

I hugged the blade tightly as I said those words without a second thought, but it was actually a mistake.

“Are you sure, you know I can just forget about joining the clan?”

“No! Big brother has always dreamed of joining the blues and I know that you’ve always wanted to become king, as your little sister I don’t want to be the hindrance to your dream but instead I want to support you. I want to be onni-chan’s strength”

I shot my head up, showing him my determined face, and he started laughing.

“I’m really glad that I had you for a twin sister”

He opened his arms and pulled me in for a hug.

“It’s because of I wanted to this utopia that we have always dreamed of, I will someday make this dream a reality so that we can finally live happily together. Because of you I wanted to be king”

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